Sunday, January 08, 2006;11:20 pm **crisis core**
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Humans tend to deceive themselves to believe in something positive before they enter into a stage of depression when truth sets in and they have no choice but to accept it. It came hard upon me. I have to admit that even I knew something was amiss two months ago, I pretended that nothing was wrong and hope for the better. It was a miracle it lived till 7 january. But a pity that a 2 year odd relationship ended. I can go on lamenting and crying over the spilled milk, but it won't help. She is gone. Something that I was proud of once is really gone. People tend to cherish things when they no longer stay by your side. I didn't know she was that important to me until the glass of love shatter. I'm still hoping, for the dead to rise from its grave, for God to descend from heaven, for pigs to fly, for cows to swim. But will it take a long time? Or will it never happen? Once a saint always a saint. My version: Once attached always attached to that person.
Everyone is waiting for the chance where they can find their true love. Mine came. But left. It came silently and left quietly. Just like a gust of wind. Something that will be forgotten. But I ain't going to forget it anymore. I can't bear to. The only thing left behind was the beautiful memories I had with her. And if that is gone too, the flame will extinguish. The passion will die. Never rekindle anymore. I was labelled a cassanova. I was one actually. But when she stepped out, I wished I was never one. For her I'll swear to change, to be good to her, to be nice and thoughtful to the people around me. To even be nice to the flowers and trees that my country has.
If you find your true love, I'll give you my blessings. If anytime you find that the world outside is cold and you need me, I'll wait for you at where you left me. Evrything left unmoved. Everything will be the same. The perfect picture in our minds that we painted.
The perfect picture that may never come true.