i jus woke up. =P
my longest sleep ever.
haha.
i slept since 5-6 plus ytd evening.
den jus sleep all the way to 7plus.
haha
i feel lyk a total pig.
omg.
12-13hrs or sleep.
i tink i read some msges in between but i was too tired to reply.
realli v v tired.
oh yongqi called.
i rmb.
cos he actualli wanted to club one.
but i was lyk er i not gg to club la
so tired
haha
i still feel a bit tired.
oh well..
mm i was v surprsied my mum din go for work too.
cos she was sick.
mm i'll prob gotta go work soon.
get my breakfast den c how.
haha.

duty tonite.
sigh
i accepted nus pharmacy ard.
pharmacy here i come.
medicine.
gd bye.

i crashed at krish's place last nite.
his place was amazin! ha. nice location for a home.
lol. though the paradiz centre is renovating.
k when i reach his hse, we played lyk winning 11 8 on ps2!
lol old sch rite.. haha.
still rmb the days where i used to play tt w zav at x square.
anw.
slept for 2 hrs.
den went to ecp.
wa. ran for 4 k (i bet it was more)
so so shagged.
cos i was leading.
damn.
the conductin(jackson) was on a bike. chief safety(krish) was rear runner.
oni left me.
chapalang "occifer".
wahaha.
so i hav to lead la. cant be let desmond lead. he confirm shagged.
hah.
after tt we had dou jiang you tiao for breakfast.
hah. so ah pek. but i lyk!
not bad la.
den build sandcastle.
mm.. ours not v nice.
the one beside us..
tink the pre u sem ppl
they build the sandcastle so so tall!
mm.. i tink they r quite pro.
haha.
den after tt went to tanjong katong to eat lunch.
n i left cos the rest wanted to play dota.
sian.
dunno how to play la.
ha.

i changed wallet! lol. daddy bought from taiwan v long time ago.
but i now den use cos my fake LV wallet spoil le.
lol. yes fake.
SGD 4 bucks from vietnam.
=P

my mum complaint abt my hp bill.
mm i got 500 free sms oni.
but used 1200 plus plus.
sigh
stupid. i wanna change plan.
=[

hai.
am i thinking too much?

u decided to give our rlnship a chance.
mm. i think we shd jus try it out again.
hope things will work out btw us.


i'll trust u again.




will you still love me in the morning?

heh.. jus woke up an hour ago.
yay off day tdy.
l8r gg for a swim at 2.
mm i'm gg to pack my room.. den my hse!
haha. so guai rite.
hav been procrastinatin since god noes when. lol.
oh i hav to find my trunks.
dunno where i put em
if not i'll wear thighs. lol.
abit gay lo.
mm.. arts fest is here!
i wanna watch some plays..
heard rhino, king lear project and awaking not bad
sigh. ppl ppl. jio me to watch a play pls.
if not i'll b bored to death.
ha.
p226 range is cancelled.
so i dun nd to conduct anymore! whee.
so gd.
mm i feel lyk gg to gym soon.
feel so unfit.
ppl around me r runnin marathons.
ytd i did 10 k
ran to guilin den few rounds around the stadium den back to my hse.
god i din noe it was tt far.
if i noe i wldn't hav ran there.
wanted to take a bus home.
but i din bring my ezlink card.
keke.
nvm la.
train to run for more races.
n train for my ippt!
ahh.. i wanna maintain a silver.
if not no incentive! sigh.


mm things r gettin better.
i hope. =)

yay!
i'm back home! finally after 24 hrs of duty on the ship!
mm so bored can.
24 hrs of not talkin to anyone
i almost died.
)=
mm den this mornin i went back to bunk.
realised i nd to be TDO
not tUAS duty officer k.
its TOLIET DUTY OFFICER!
lol w krish again.
we did tt two mondays ago.
haha.
he's back!
lol. he bought me this pair of boxers from american eagle.
they hav camel humps on it.
den krish said.
i chose this design cos i noe u go around humpin ppl.
ZZ!
nO!
i dun do tt ok. onli dogs hump ppl.
OMG. krishmen rasu.
haha.
did my trainin prog tdy.
so freakin tired after tt.
act on half day off.
but i cancelled it cos i've got too many things to do.
haha.
totally forgot abt doin up the trainin prog.
mm.. think i'm gg to run later.
had so lil slp overall.
sigh.
i dunno wad i'm thinkin. or doin rite now.
)=













To the one whom i've spend my ups n downs with,
i miss u dearly.

went to sentosa w zav tdy.
ya jus both of us. haha.
i brought my sis for breakfast at wang's cafe at 1130.
den met zav at 12. we took bus to vivo.
mm he's an islander! wanted to sign up leh. 19.50 for 1 year. so cheap.
too bad hav to wait v long cos its weeekend den there is lyk onli one staff attendin.
so i was lyk ai ya forget it.
sun tan til 4.
den went to seah im food centre to eat hokkien prawn noodle and sugar cane drink. lol!
zav ordered the same thing.
i think there is so much that we are alike.
esp our thinkin.
anw i bought a shirt tdy.
from domanchi.
49 buck oni. long sleeve shirt.
think i look ok in it.
=P

saw sam from 58th batch in sentosa. he said there'll be a gathering soon.
but muz wait for gab n xinhui to come back.
den saw qiuying n JC
mm den zav was lyk sayin, wa they still tgt ah
break n patch... mm from sec 1 rlnship til now.
i tink they'll get married.
lol
so sweet.
happy for em.


GSS is here.
omg
i wanna shop! but i'm quite broke. haha.
cos nt mth shd be gg phuket.


addicted to this song by jesse Mc Cartney- leavin'
v catchy song.

i din go drink in e end.
met zav actualli.
hmm.



i nd a life buoy.
a sailor in distress.

Lets101 - Online Dating

mm.. how true is it. how come i got 6 stars one.

6 compatible signs? so not true.

I'm on off tdy.
met johnathan sir tdy.
my bmt pc.
haha.
he is still as cute. oh no.
i'm not turnin gay.
jus tt think he quite gd lookin.
but still single.
lol.
tdy is his bday! haha. so i went to meet him after his tannin session.
mm but i onli met him for a while. cos tink his 1st batch of rec r celebratin his bday w him.
hope he enjoyed his day.

hai. tot abt krish.
how r u my fren.
bet he muz be enjoyin his time in LA.
last time he msged me was when chelsea lost. haha.

maybe i'll go drinkin tonite.
guowei sae he wanna lend me his shirt,
" i declared myself mister EMO"
haha. lol.
EMOing is bad for health.
but everyone has to emo.
when they r sad. cos den they can feel better after crying.

chuan msged me online! finally. he's still alive. lol.
mm but he said he kinda got pneumonia again. so sad.
hai. but he din tell me oso.
if not i'll go visit him.


just thought tt i shd try to be a lil more creative.


i stop and stare.
i tried to care.
but what u did
was not being fair.

i told myself
to trust tt part of myself
all i got was lies
and more lies.



k i shd stop tryin to write tt kinda stuff.
i cant do it for nuts.

i woke up feelin so freed.
i think u grew tired because u were tryin to become some1 u were not.
it wasn't a dream. i muz thank ppl.
ya frens.
frens r impt.
so impt.
too impt tt maybe u can forget abt me.
fine.
maybe all along u r a clubber.
but u suppressed it cos u waited for me until i turn 18.
when i was sailing, u went to uni.
frens are more impt to u.
they fill up the lonliness u hav.
u realised tt all the cant live wout u is bullshit.
u start to miss me lesser.
memories of us were being eraseed and replaced.
so easily.
u dun nd me.
anymore.
i feel lyk a sanitary pad.
yes crude.
u nd me then.
and now.
i served my purpose already.
tt is to tide u over until u find new frens.
i dun rmb the u i noe to be lyk tt.
but amybe u were tt all along.
maybe i knew the better part of u.
tt was gone with our memories.
and ur love for me.
thank you for giving me the pain.
the pain for lovin u.
the pain for trustin u so much.
i think love is blind.
cos i loved u blindly.

I watched made of honour tdy. was a nice show actualli. v sweet story.
I havent hav nuff sleep for quite long ard. haha.. since last week.
later gg to watch champions league finals! if i can get up on time to watch.
its chelsea vs man u! haha at moscow. hope chelsea can win thou. sigh.
ate bk for dinner. double mushroom swiss. had ice lemon tea.
i began to realise my eatin habits hav become so much like u.
maybe cos i try to eat wad u eat.
i try to like wad u like.
25 mths n 19 days being tgt w u.
u mean the whole world to me. n i felt lyk a part of u.
but, r u a part of my life too?
are u still thinkin whether i will feel happy or sad?
will u still miss me the way u do?
i was sitting alone on a bench jus now n was deep in my thoughts.
all these qns start to appear in my mind?
was readin all the msges u sent me. i realised we had a big tiff on 5 nov. after tt all ur msges were no longer s sweet s b4.
why am i so dumb to realise it onli now?
why din u tell me straight in e face when u were tired?
when u wanted to give up?
why din u give me another chance to salvage it?
my brain size is onli 1359cm3.
tt small.
pea brain.
mao dar is a blockhead.
sigh.
now u msg me more abt wad u r doin n stuff. but still no dear. still no mao dar.
i guess u jus din wan to sae it.
its alrite.
i want to meet u.
cos i miss u so much.
i nd u.
mentally n physically.
nobody said being in a rlnship was easy.
but it's not difficult if u start by giving me a chance.
At least give us a chance to try things out again would u?

Lets101 Quizzes - Blog Quizzes

u started to ignore me. boo. i realli dunno wad to do. i'm so lost.
gone were the days u used to hold my hand so tightly u'll nv let it go.
everytime i hold ur hand or hug u, i try to make u feel how i feel for u.
my dear. i dunno wad has gone wrong but i jus wanna tell u tt i hope we can try it again. together.
msged u if u wld stil love me the next mornin? u din reply foreva n eva.
i was so disappointed yet again.
why? are things so bad tt we cannot be how we use to be again? u din tell me when u felt down. even if u did, it was when i was sailin for 6 weeks. after which i got confined for god knows how long.
ppl say tt ns will break a rlnship. i tot we said tt was so not true. not for us.
but wad is happenin. after i commission from ocs, wad i get is this.
i dun even noe how to reply u when u jus replied : playing game lo...
u knew i hated u to reply short sms. n 3 words. again.
why?
ytd when i ask u if u loved me. u told me yes. i was so happy. but u said abt no commitment n u said abt too late, i jus cant help but teared. again n again.
interview my guys ytd. some were still in a rlnship gg strong. why cant we? is ns realli a place where love will falter?

i suddenly tot of this story.
two frogs in a well. swimming. happily livin with each other. they loved each other so much n the sky they saw above the well was the whole world to em. they were v contented n satisfied w the life they live. den one day, one frog told the other tt he has to go swim underwater to find food. he went for weeks. months. leavin the other frog alone. thinkin.
the other frog asked herself: wad would it be like outside of this well?
so the other frog decided to jump. she kept jumpin and tried to reach out of the well. until one day, she eventually jumped outta e well. she found many other frogs around outside the well. She wanted to make new frens n forgot abt the frog.
when the frog finally surfaced, he couldn't find the other frog. he shouted n shouted her name.
again and again.
noone responded.
the other frog made new frens and was v happy w her new found frens.
will the other frog rmbs e frog n jump back into the well? or will she help him to climb out of e well to her world?
or will she jus leave the frog alone in e well?

my dear, wad would u do? =(

i told u how i feel deep down inside.
n as expected, i knew u were tired. maybe i nv tried hard enuf. maybe i wasn't even gd enuf for u.
malfunction after 2230.
taking u for granted.
never realli showed how much i cared for u.
until when i was sailing, u realised tt ur world is not jus abt me. but ur frens. but other ppl. who made u happier. tahn i could.
all i gave u was nth but sadness n disappointment.
but i was glad u said how u felt inside.
but when u told me it was too late, i jus cried so much. so so much. i felt tt i nv realli showed my love for u.

i shd be the one to apologise. cos i was in e wrong all along.
when i called u, u were cryin. i felt so painful. dear. i'm so sorry for bringin so much pain to u.

i think when u r in dis situation, u jus hav to ask urself if u still love me.
No matter what your reply will be. I'll still love u my mao baby.

its 130am in the mornin. was woken up by a nitemare. omg i woke up w my body drenched in sweat. wad happened to us? jus now i msg u u told me u were at ur aunt's hse seein ur mum play mahjong. the next moment i msg u u duin reply. waited a while msg u again. no reply. i called u. u din pick up. now its 130. there isn't even a single thing from my fone from u. onli my OC replied my weekly status. tt's all.
i called u at 115 jus now. call until the voicemail thingee appeared. all i can say is i'm v disappointed. i was jus worried abt u.
boo my dear. i've been wanting u ask u this for a v long time ard. lyk i notice we've not been so close as before. hai dunno how to sae it to u. but i dunno if u r tryin hard enuf for our rlnship.
hav u given up? cos i still wanna try it w u. someone told me this b4: the initial part of a rlnship is always sweet n happy, but long term rlnship nds commitment to add sparks to continue the rlnship.
after so much tt we hav been thru.
do u still love me my dear?

another nice song.
from 9pm channel 8 show. muahaha

somehow i find myself in the situation my best fren is in. ha. its his bday tdy. HAPPY BDAY!
bet he's prob enjoyin himself in LA.
This song is a v nice song. esp when he sang dun make me change my mind.
n a gal like u is impossible to find.

Fall for you- Second hand serenade


The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me inI'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words'
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

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couldn't get it on my blog. embed disabled by request.
sian. go listen to the song.

I had a dream. a dream tt i onli happens in fairy tales n tv shows.
when i woke up the next mornin, i realised i was back here where i was again.
I tried to sleep to find back the same dream i had.
but no matter how hard i try, the dream wont come back to me anymore.
maybe it was jus not meant to be. or maybe the dream came at the wrong time.







I wish i can make the dream again. i realli do.

monday! muahaha. a brand new week ahead. but i'm so busy. mm..
i realised i hav v impt frens around me. the friendships w these ppl is becomin stronger cos they r always there for me when i nd help. lyk my closest indian fren: krish. n chinese fren: zav.
mm.. feels gd to know there is a best fren to listen to what you've got. do stupid things tgt. tah all the scoldings from oc tgt. ha. jus suddenly appreciates those who cares for me. (:
thank you guys.

jus had steamboat at home! made a mess thou. jus now spilled some soup in the kitchen..zz.. but all is well n the steamboat is yummy! haha. i think i've become a v family person. lyk i care more for my family now. i used to hate bein at home and stuff.. durin my teenage days.. ): psst: i'm soon gg to hit the age wout a teen behind! grr..
i can still rmb the days when i quarrelled w my parents and my siblings.. until my parents were so disappointed w me. almost gave up. oh mm.. i think they gave up. haha. at least i realised my mistake now. i'm spendin more time w my family now.
mm krish got into pharm too. he said this year dem easy to get in cos last year those med rejects got in pharmacy but went overseas to study. so there's lyk a lack of pharmacy.
actualli to be objective abt it. its not realli bad. cos den i'll be competin w ppl tt might be less intellectual. mm. ok i'm not an elitist. not even one to start with. but i think i'll jus stick to pharm. at most work harder and go overseas for my post grad. or GMS. a not v cheap but gd degree. i think. by den the pioneers wld hav graduated. shall jus c how they perform after they grad.
duke uni leh. though they offer. MD. i always think tt MBBS is better. its a preference btw bein a researcher and a physician. oh well.
i realised my peers around me are either doctors, lawyers or in top universities around the world esp in UK and US. freakin gd. how i wish i could be lyk tt.
my dad told me to appeal and call up nus. lol. ask em why they wld waste such a talent. i was lyk err.. no i'm not realli a talent. besides, there are so many ppl out there facin the same situation but they opt to go overseas to pursue medicine. den my dad said, tell em they cant deny a poor talent a chance from bein a doc. hah. the sad reality is- in this society, the rich jus gets richer. And the poor jus gets poorer.
tt's y i've been tellin myself i wanna be great. at least in the future my kids will have a better education and more options. i dun blame my parents for being poor. but i wanna work hard cos i noe how it feels to be denied of a chance of doing smtg u wan. the disappointment.
nuff of ranting. nt week willl be quite relax. hee.

mm.. been auite long since i blogged. its the mth of may! hee. rcv the letter from nus. i got into pharmacy! lol. mm.. i guess i still can be an academic doctor ba. i heard the course is not easy. dem competitive. zz. shall try my best. give up on reapplyin med ard. hai. mayb i'll do post grad at GMS.c how.
had soccer w zav in the mornin. den he left early cos its his mum's bday tdy! lol. den push forward the celebration to lunchtime. i'm so tired. keep playin winnin 11 this few days. v bored. no new games for psp. anyone got any game to intro? mm. gg out w family later. my sis's last violin lesson cos her teacher is gg to give birth soon. oh dear. i shd catch some slp.

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