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Wednesday, May 31, 2006;8:45 pm **crisis core**
lol
arghh! got more photos de! dunno y cant upload! haha.. me n dear.. whee! so sweet!




;8:37 pm **crisis core**
lol
SHh... JE library..
cool hor.. clear shot.
cringin...haha...actin stupid.
gleamin w joy!
hor... uncle wad u doin!?




Tuesday, May 30, 2006;11:24 pm **crisis core**
lol
hee... dear happy i oso v happy!
whee... all the stuff we share n talk... jiang bu wan! lol.. hah...
mm...
watch da vinci code tdy! wa... dem nice... hah...
ya agree w dear abit draggy...
but the plot v nice... havent read the book ma...
ppl sae book nicer...
wa... the pagans n christians in rome...
din noe all tt..
mayb its a myth...
mayb its the truth...
no one realli noes...
descendants of jesus christ guarded by the prior of sion.
r they realli true?
is jesus man turn to god?
or divine all along?
or is man divine?
wow...
cool stuff..
constantine is a pagan emperor.
mary magadalene... bore a child of Jesus.
mary is the holy Grail.

wad is the da vinci code?

can u ever solve it?

but before all tt... i nd more money to watch x men 3 n ice skatin... wa... GSS!! ahh...
cannot miss it... boo...

yay! love dear lots!




;12:26 am **crisis core**
lol
yea yea... yea.... yea...

holis my fav time.. but muggin stil has to be done.. sigh.
tml got math s.. wa... tired sia..
but gg to watch DVC wif dear tml! hopefullY!
hah..




Sunday, May 28, 2006;3:41 pm **crisis core**
lol
whee... life...
is abt enjoyin the best outta ur life.




Friday, May 26, 2006;7:14 pm **crisis core**
lol
to my 3+2 dears.... sori i pang seh u all cannot meet up tdy... tml mayb? we go mug tgt k?
ha...

mm... tdy is the alst day of sch. bit of comments..
tot abt smtgs tt i realli sld not hav done... n smtgs i havent done...
cos we had this psychometric test briefin...
okok.. i'm not the elite.... not the top 20 la.. haha... but tt's not the pt... i nv was...
jus tt it led me to this train of tot tt wad do i realli wan in life?
wad can i do to be wad i wan?
wad do i wan actually? this may sound weird but i realli dunno...
shd i even take SAT?
s papers 52 bucks per paper...
hav to pay by cash... lol...
hefty sum of money...

but act monetary issue aint the prevailin problem... its abt wad i wan to study in the uni n which uni i wan to go n wad scholarships am i aimin for tt matters...
now... i realli dunno..
miss 2 sat exams.... so the next is october.. which is so close to.... A's....
how how?

am tryin to b focus.
i hav to.
cos i dun 1 2 b wad i was.
i was there b4...
down n down n down...
den i went up...
n got complacent.
n fall back again.

long story.
i noe how it feels to be down there..
n swore nv ever to fall back into the dark pit again..
but i feel myself fallin into it slowly s time pass by...
feel the suction force by the dark forces of nature... engulfin my physical self.

emotionally i am hollow s my soul gets weaker n weaker with the destruction by the crazy mystical power inside. i feel like i am goin around in circles..



But an external strength pulls me up whenever i feel that i'm fallin... And that strength is a collective force of the good. the power of love and friendship.
family, frens n ur soul partners. givin u their utmost care n concern.
with that kind of love n strength.
I'm spiritually stronger. Cos i noe, no matter wad, they will b here to catch me when i fall.

i feel so ang moh. lol.




Thursday, May 25, 2006;8:44 pm **crisis core**
lol
had a tirin day tdy...

mm... tired..
haha... dear n i studied tdy...
tml she got gp! jia you!




Wednesday, May 24, 2006;9:11 pm **crisis core**
lol
shall blogged abt my intrusion of a random blog..

k firstly... wanna sae how i feel towards certain ppl in their mindset.
they always think tt guysr childish n immature. yes to a certain extent they r rite... but u cant blame us for tt...
we hav high level of testosterone n later puberty than gals... but... truth is...
ostracisation is part of life. u cant deny the fact. c'mon... dun u alienate ppl ever in ur life?

guys r more mature cos they r straight forward. yes truth hurts, but it helps to build another's character.
w a person wout a gd character to start with... with a person who backstabs u again n again... how many times muz we repeat to redress our grievance tt we r the ones bein intimidated n bullied...?

Y is one ostracised in the 1st place? dun u ppl dislike workin w such ppl s well?
looks doesn't matter. but the prob is some ppl r jus workin on changin tt.
n tt's sad.
cos no one realli cares to talk sense to him.
cos we are afraid to b hurt again.

if oni ppl can understand n sympathise w my plight.
backstabbed. n used. jus like a fool.
n bein imagined by ppl like a watermelon being squashed.... n my brain juices all oozin out...

is it worth it?
is it worth to b hurt again helpin some one who treats u like god on the surface n treats u like dirt on the inside?

if i can turn back time... i wld hav nv enagage a convo of 3-4 hrs almost everyday.
when i was down n out. i got back stabbed.
when i needed some 1... yes he was there.... but it was a facade.


i was labelled s the love doc. if u hav watched the hitch n noe me. many said tt...
n i was recommended by his den gd fren.

so was i used?

m i rite to reserve the right not to talk to him any more?

or i sld b more ' tolerant' to such ppl?

is it a learnin pt tt all of us sld learn?

if not... y dun u try n tell me wad i sld do?

sad to sae... everyone judges everyone...
consciously or subconsciously.
by quotin eqns n showin signs or irritability showed tt u r makin jugdes n indicatin negative connotations to ppl who mayb innocent.

hav u checked their innocence? if not y r u makin such comments?
do u noe the reason? do u noe the story?

even if i stand up n tell the whole story, wld u see me s credible again?
no. cos u r judgin me too. cos u r biased in ur own way too...
like it or not...
u hav done it.

so if ever u wanna make comments.
think abt wad u r sayin b4 preachin on smtg tt is philosophical.




Tuesday, May 23, 2006;7:52 pm **crisis core**
lol
ok...

had a short day..
but still abit shagged.. haha...
mm.. chem...stil way to go...
watchin my bao lian teng.
quite nice.. haha..
home alone..
again.
dear's dad bday. haha...
tml watchin da wen xi w 3+2...
hope can watch...
hee...
gtg repair my hp.. the clamy...
i wan a hp.
boo.




Monday, May 22, 2006;9:56 pm **crisis core**
lol
i was realli sad til eunice n dear came to comfort me...
thx!
tot dear was slpin..
act she was eatin.. haha... bleagh.. miss slpin...
haha.. oops.. become pig liao... mm doin chem... hav ben doin it the whole day...
stupid..
dunno wad i was doin..
arghh!
stress.




;8:48 pm **crisis core**
lol
hee.. watched over the hedge w dear tdy! haha.... so funny...

its a muz watch... (:

dear... dun care abt those ppl k... u have me! (: will b here no matter wad.. hee...

ok.. now talk abt serious matters....
wtf... my parents sucks man... this is the worse kinda parents u can hav...
1st sae wan cancel internet.. gimme the money...
k tell u y i wan cancel my internet...
A's comin... com addiction do u get it? fuck. they dun.
wout my com.. of cos i nd more sms n talktime to talk to other frens....
wad's their prob? what the fuck is wrong w them? knn...
realli cannot stand it... its lyk... which part of i nd more sms don't they get it?
hai.. give up le la... they dun even try to b lyk parents...
childish n all... y dun they understand?
i dun nd to go thru this shit... they wan me to not do well... b it...
cos i'm not gg to care....
fuck my future.
they screw it up.
n they tink they can get away w it.
i dun nd such attitudes.
i dun nd such family.
a home where i can sae i belong.




;3:44 pm **crisis core**
lol
this is wad i call a story in a poem.




;3:35 pm **crisis core**
lol
this was a poem grabbed from shu.
i cried aft readin it.. i tink i holds great meanin in it. be it the gd or the bad.
life has to move on.
cos we have to grow.
a memory of the past comes back to haunt
a shadow from the years ago returns reformed
secrets buried so deep have dug their way out
and all i can do is give a silent, helpless shout
i tore my heart open and gave you my all
you were the one who picked me up whenever i fall
yet circumstances have shown you weren't my rock
i sewed my heart shut and let my tears drop
the painful past i chose to forget
to move on with life without that pat on my back
i kept the good memories, let go of the bad
you made me grow friend, in ways i never had
now time has grown wings as years past us by
you make a big entrance back into my life
but things have since changed, no longer the same
what you succeeded my friend, was resurface my pain
i cannot deny you're the one i count on
in pleasant or rough times, through sunshine or storms
when life seemed so bland, you were there my dear friend
you filled that empty void in my heart till the very last end
through loneliness and fear i have turned out real strong
you brought me great joy but you did me great wrong
but i sincerely thank you for all of the years
i know i was at fault too, let's bear no grudges
though hope has been shattered it can be restored
our friendship is one that cannot be bought
through time and good effort it can be made whole
though what happens next no one will yet know
life is complicated; we each live our own
years have since passed; look how we have grown
though staying in touch constantly is no easy feat
impossible is nothing after fate let us meet
i thank you my friend for all you have done
it brought back old memories of laughter and fun
i'm glad you remember me through our fast, busy days
i'll never forget your sincere gestures and ways
friend i'm so sorry for not playing my part
our story is beautiful, a fine work of art
it takes two hands to clap, two people to tango
i have to write our story too, yes dear friend i know
though right at the start i was confused and plain shocked
as images from the years ago returned to me and mocked
but 'once bitten, twice shy' is just an excuse.
i'm ready my friend, to relight the spark that has fused
emotions and thoughts mingle into one body
friend i want to say i truly am sorry
for allowing that gap to come between us
i hope you'll forgive me and let it all past
the past i had forgetten, the future's in store
thanks for re-knocking on my ignorant heart's door
i'm prepared to let go for a fresh new beginning
friendship is one of life's subjects and friend i'm still learning
new friends are silver, true friends are pure gold
i hope our friendship will be a story to behold




;3:35 pm **crisis core**
lol
this was a poem grabbed from shu.
i cried aft readin it.. i tink i holds great meanin in it. be it the gd or the bad.
life has to move on.
cos we have to grow.
a memory of the past comes back to haunt
a shadow from the years ago returns reformed
secrets buried so deep have dug their way out
and all i can do is give a silent, helpless shout
i tore my heart open and gave you my all
you were the one who picked me up whenever i fall
yet circumstances have shown you weren't my rock
i sewed my heart shut and let my tears drop
the painful past i chose to forget
to move on with life without that pat on my back
i kept the good memories, let go of the bad
you made me grow friend, in ways i never had
now time has grown wings as years past us by
you make a big entrance back into my life
but things have since changed, no longer the same
what you succeeded my friend, was resurface my pain
i cannot deny you're the one i count on
in pleasant or rough times, through sunshine or storms
when life seemed so bland, you were there my dear friend
you filled that empty void in my heart till the very last end
through loneliness and fear i have turned out real strong
you brought me great joy but you did me great wrong
but i sincerely thank you for all of the years
i know i was at fault too, let's bear no grudges
though hope has been shattered it can be restored
our friendship is one that cannot be bought
through time and good effort it can be made whole
though what happens next no one will yet know
life is complicated; we each live our own
years have since passed; look how we have grown
though staying in touch constantly is no easy feat
impossible is nothing after fate let us meet
i thank you my friend for all you have done
it brought back old memories of laughter and fun
i'm glad you remember me through our fast, busy days
i'll never forget your sincere gestures and ways
friend i'm so sorry for not playing my part
our story is beautiful, a fine work of art
it takes two hands to clap, two people to tango
i have to write our story too, yes dear friend i know
though right at the start i was confused and plain shocked
as images from the years ago returned to me and mocked
but 'once bitten, twice shy' is just an excuse.
i'm ready my friend, to relight the spark that has fused
emotions and thoughts mingle into one body
friend i want to say i truly am sorry
for allowing that gap to come between us
i hope you'll forgive me and let it all past
the past i had forgetten, the future's in store
thanks for re-knocking on my ignorant heart's door
i'm prepared to let go for a fresh new beginning
friendship is one of life's subjects and friend i'm still learning
new friends are silver, true friends are pure gold
i hope our friendship will be a story to behold




;11:06 am **crisis core**
lol
bo bo tak. botak botak knock ur head!

lol... so sian... alone at home... yay! me n dear gg to watch over the hedge!

erm... hey.. zav, ko n shu.... wed wan watch da vinci code? if not when? pls get back to me asap....

ko better reply to my hp k... wahhah... basket u...

whee... doin chem now... muz start my revision... realised the qns alot i dunno how to do! s in dunno correct or not... omg... this is bad.. haha...

tml dear's dad bday... hee....
oh ya... they found out abt us... dear's family.. haha... dem funny...

okok i'll do a podcast abt s'pore idol nt time.... if anyone happens to watch ytd's idol....

benedict was there! haha... my pri sch fren...

den... erm.. dem funny la! haha... mayb nt year i'll join idol... jus for fun.. lol... but make sure i get famous for smtg good... not the other way. lol.... -_-zzz




Sunday, May 21, 2006;10:17 pm **crisis core**
lol
mm... new podcast... on y army muz cut botak.

savour.
enjoy.
devour.
yt.


lol.. haha...

anw... v happy.. love dear lots! (:




;7:57 pm **crisis core**
lol
tdy went swimmin w zav in the mornin... den went to meet dear! hee.. happy.. haha... bought a v v nice chocs for dear... i jus ate it tdy.. erm its meiji de... the long long one.. grape flavour.. but she sae she got eat b4.. haha.. my 1st time...! zav kope from bi wen de...

lol... zav n biwen.. n meizhen.. scandalous.. haha...

kelvin nv reply me.. basket... i dun wan reply him nt time le... ha.. whee...

wa.. i'm so full...

k spent my day out again...

A's is comin... muz mug hard...
keep tellin myself tt but jus got no motivation to mug...

showed my parents the stussy flip flops... haha.. they sae nice.. omg thx dear! u n ur gd yan guang! ha...

muz do chem l8r.. shit... no mood... haha.. too full... v slpy...

whee...dear n me went walk walk tdy... kranji there... erm.. act its limbang there la.. hah...
ok help my sis to get a tagboard finally...

oh... btw.. i cut botak. ha. omg.. tell u it was a dare.. but anw... mm... cos weather hot ma. ha. so cut oso can.. ok.. shall come up w a podcast y go service nd to cut botak. my version... ha... if i got time...




;9:16 am **crisis core**
lol
Dear, why r u unhappy? tot things were great... tot life has changed. i dunno...
problem is not i want to cancel internet de... jus tt i go home go online. go online cannot study. cant multi task.
den my parents will say say say..
den A's come out they'll blame me for tt.
do u understand?
i'm realli happy w u. cos i realli c a future in us.
keep tellin u this dunno u'll sian or not. n i realli can feel tt u r not happy.
but i dunno how to comfort u.
if u r unhappy abt smtg... speak up to me k?
cos i wan our rlnship to b truthful. to be happy.
i wan it to last.
i wan to hav a beautiful story w u.
yes i'm crazy abt num.
but i'm crazy cos mayb i'm feelin empty inside...
sometimes ppl do somethings cos they r feelin deprived of it.. n shoppin for smtg tt i lyk can make me happy in the sense tt i'm deprive of it...
my mum always disapproves me of buyin such stuff... even thou it looks nice on me.
n i jus wan to destress... feel happy w doin things tt i can. while i can.
yes i mayb rash. v rash.. always cant wait for things... save up lyk hell...
but if i dun do tt... i wont get tt.... cos i noe if i save up slowly...
chances are i may end up gettin nth. cos i wont save de...
i will still blog in sch.. i dunno... but net is realli tyin me down.. look at me bloggin at such crazy time. 9 am in the mornin.. gg to tan w zav later... who the hell on earth wld do tt...
even w a gf.. even w lots of hw to do...
who? but me.
com addiction is all i can sae.
i realli hope u do understand.
if u r realli unhappy muz tell me...
i dun 1 u 2 feel tired to the pt of givin me up den u tell me... when everything is irreparable.
cos i care.
cos i realli do wish " til death do we part"
cos life is too short to be sad over it.
n cos i love u.




Saturday, May 20, 2006;9:35 pm **crisis core**
lol
yes! i got my NUM membership card tdy! woo hoo! haha... so shiok! hee...
den i got my stussy flip flops too! haha.. okok... shall stop shoppin n save up... til gr8 s'pore sale...
ppl i gg to stop my internet connection le... so get me on my mobile fone k?
i lost all my contacts... most la... so gimme a sms so tt i noe who u r n how to contact u la.. haha...
will get a new plan i guess... ha.. hope so.
mm.. i tink i spend money lyk water. shd stop this le.
yes. i tink i sld...
i tink i'm doin this to feel better abt myself. i dunno.. but i'm not rich.. i jus wanna b different.
n it jus happens tt NUM caught my eye. well its realli nice u hav to admit.
yes.. once a mth i'll buy smtg.
to satisfy myself.
nt mayb a jacket.
cos lt5 n lt2 v cold.
den mayb a bag?
dunno but the NUM bag abit not v nice....
the stussy flip flops i buy tdy v nice! hee... v cute la.. its lyk not beng.. i dun 1 flip flops last time cos it looks abit beng... but ok la... stussy de.. den boi boi.. ha.
mm.... tired liao... i'm so slpy.
miss u dear. hee... tml mayb not meetin u... boo tt's sad.... will miss u alot.
slp early k?
hha...
mm... i noe dear dun lyk me spend so much money... cos not worth it la.. den i so kan chiong... haha.. i noe dear... i'll b less impatient den... thou i'm realli v rash de... hah.

NJ funtasia ok la... not v fun aft all... lol... but better den last year. i oni enjoy eatin briyani n milo dino w dear at AL- azhar eatin hse. den funny... the indian dem act seh... haha....

i tink zav n bi wen possible.. hahah... nv c the mei zhen b4... lol....

anw... hope life goes well for everyone. hope life goes well for me too..
A's comin liao.. i'm v scared inside...
cos bo tak che.
no time.. dunno y.
hai.
stressed..
ppl sae.." u no cca got time wad?"
u tink got ah... dun sae gf la.. but even if i at home i'll oso lag de... wad's the pt?
muz well rest more...
so less pimples.

dunno la. stressed is all i can sae.
n i realli hope to do my parents proud. (:
bless me. bless the loved ones around me.
cos i love all of them n wish tt life will b brighter in the future.




;8:53 am **crisis core**
lol
hey hey.... jus came online to sae gd mornin to everyone! its gg to b a great day! yeah yeah! i'm gg to b late for sch i tink.. haha... dear's hp spoil again.. stupid sony.. dots.. i dun 1 buy fone le! haha....

i'm so nuM! yeah! but the website nv show the bag i wan...

ok...
my wish list nd to edit liao...




Friday, May 19, 2006;9:04 pm **crisis core**
lol
haha.... tdy interestin things happened!
dem funny! but we got the num membership card! yay!
soon can buy the num bag liao...

but i realised... my sandals spoil liao. -_-
how? dear bought a bag tdy! hee... wa.. num bag so cool! 99 bucks... but v nice.. orange... hee

yay!




Thursday, May 18, 2006;9:09 pm **crisis core**
lol
hee.... met dear tdy! haha... yeah! tml we gg to sun tan.... budden... dunno where....
ahhaa....

my blog tdy is v short.... lazy la... paiseh... if u wan juicy n lame stuff.. go the links below... erm.. dabomb army.. or listen to my podcast....




;12:23 am **crisis core**
lol
dear in num tank top! chio!




;12:19 am **crisis core**
lol
tdy me n dear went to je.. cos of creative.. stupid creative.. haha..so long liao stil dun 1 gimme my cam.. lol... sian diao..

hee.. den me n dear watched when a stranger calls.. lol! no lor! i dun mean it... i dun mean to forget to get the tix from the guy n oni take the change.. haha.. den went kobayashi n realised tt i lose the tix! lol...
sori dear.. haha.. den in the theatre.. omg.. i screamed once. haha.. yeah.. but dear was v scared! kee.. thou she nv scream.. hee... cos i hug her ma.. yeah. bleagh... wee hee... sat funtasia...
bought dear the tix.. haha..

dear dear... when r we wearin our num tee?




Monday, May 15, 2006;8:19 pm **crisis core**
lol
tdy is a very tirin day. haha.. cos ytd nite slept at 4 w dear... toked on the fone.. k.. tell u wad i'm gg to do l8r.. if i can...

bio essay.... two plus 1 structured.
superposition assignment.
Math lect test for tml.
omg.. sian diao! haha....
alot leh... its lyk 8 now.. i wan slp early... how how? boo.. sld i work? sld i sld i?




;12:18 am **crisis core**
lol
ok... my wish list...
num tank top - checked.

berm...
my tan.. a quarter checked.
w800i...
havannas flip flops...
a nice hair cut...

can some 1 pls grant me my wishes? hee




Sunday, May 14, 2006;1:29 am **crisis core**
lol
hee... i bought my num shirt! yeah! but... means i'm so far away from my k750i or w800i.. nvm.. hahah... tt was the last piece! me n dear bought same design... germany de... wahahah... went heeren.. got dear's size.. dun hav mine... den go citylink mall.. got mine no dear's.. haha in the end i went back buy... hee... yay! couple tee! thou it cost us 59.90 for each... haha... but realli worth it! hee... so happy!




Saturday, May 13, 2006;12:33 am **crisis core**
lol
Tune in to the persisently non-childish podcast of the mr taz show....
brought to u by mahteen.blogspot.com

(:




Friday, May 12, 2006;12:25 am **crisis core**
lol
hai... y muz the class be lyk tt.. cos of a fag.. is it worth it? its jus 1 stupid guy who is selfish n doesn't bother to change n self ostracise himself.. from pe.. to pluggin out monitor... to being a total fag.




Thursday, May 11, 2006;11:56 pm **crisis core**
lol
wahahhaa.... yeah... u hav to wait a while for my nice voice! hehehe.... wahahha... my 1st time ok.. so abit sian.. i'll make it interestin nt time! dem cool sia.. mr brown... i love ba chor mee... haha... but no liver k... haha




;10:02 pm **crisis core**
lol
haha... ok.. any noes how to upload mp3 files to web?




;9:49 pm **crisis core**
lol
www.mrbrown.com

lol... i'm gg to kope his idea! haha...




Wednesday, May 10, 2006;8:10 pm **crisis core**
lol
wa... i wan go bath liao.. haha.. came back quite a while le... i nd a new hp plan.. not enuf sms.. ha.. m1 student plan! yay. hee.. n k750i? lol its 198 oni. so cheap. sld i buy? comments comments.

hha... but cnd n fy hav le.. dun 1 copy em.. but w800i too ex.. hai... ):

nd a fone? nd a life.

if i realli get a new plan.. den my old plan how? no other hp to use... ):




Tuesday, May 09, 2006;11:55 pm **crisis core**
lol
my day was happy! haha... dear.. i'll trust u totally k? from the day u gave me ur heart, i knew tt we can last. hee.. yay! so happy! haha.. thx for letting me understand n love u more! haha... tml u bio spa.. last spa le! jia you k? u hav my support! smartin give u some brains... haha.. u so smart... keke... n evrytime kup my brain juices! haha... jk jk... boo... hp hp... how? haha...

funtasia is so fun... ya rite.. kena duty from 4 - 6. -_-zzz




;10:40 am **crisis core**
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Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words

i love you dear. i'm sori




Monday, May 08, 2006;11:27 pm **crisis core**
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i realli dun lyk tt idiot. hai. y he stil so fan... -_-zzz feel v insecure u noe.




;11:25 pm **crisis core**
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boo... nuff said. dunno wad else to sae. heart reaches to rock bottom again. sori. ):




;8:20 pm **crisis core**
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wth... i dun care... to those fuckers who likes to secretly read my blog... n those who blatantly did it... i dun give a fuckin damn.

bio spa tdy.. leng leng.. but i cramped up my procedures la.. not enuf spaces...

i realise there's no nd to explain to ppl y i wan to do certain things.. cos its my life.. u dun like..
fuckin get lost.
cb...

obviously some fuckin hackers dun give a damn abt how i feel.. dun blame the guys for not bein gentlemanly.. cos there's no gals to fuckin b gentleman abt. c'mon who is the one who is mean 1st? lp...
ask us not to ostracise him... lj.. did u even dare to sit w him durin chem lect?!!!!

answer is NO! wtf.
obviously i hav a reason passwordin my blog. since u lyk to hack it so much. den hack all u want!
wth. ppl change blogskin wanna tok cock. ppl write stuff post photo oso wanna kb... wad the fuck u want?
tt's y i pw my blog. cos i dun wan ppl to sae i mushy or wtf. or wadeva.. k la.. u all wan c den c la.. tmd.

tt faggort.. lp.. everyday lunch i'll find sumting new.. cb. don n sh tell me he told em wad i sae to him.. stil tot he was a gd fren cos he toked to me when i was sad n down... tmd.. trusted the wrong guy..
mayb u tink i dumb. ya.. indeed! wtf...

sc toks to the lj guy now... he analyse everything again.. tt lj man... everytime tink he v gd at tt.. act.. tell u u r so wrong! c'mon la.. if u r so gd at it.. u wun b in nj liao.. cb... tt fucker wanted to go hc... tmd disgrace la.

he thinks don is disappointed at him... ( wahhaha... ya rite)

sh is angry cos of sum reason forget liao...( his character la!)

sam any how any how de... ( lol.. since sec 4 he hate him liao la.)

martin if he angry cos of utopia tt's v dumb...( ya rite... cb... tt was oni one eg to show tt u r a fuckin backstabber! wad's d rest? more to come.. lyk hello other incidents tt showed u r a bs la... cb.... )

hello. if the gals wanna ostracise the guys. i dun realli give a damn. cos u'll realise this sooner or l8r.. me n don n sh.... gd egs... we got called... ok... oni me so dumb.. believed tt i cld trust him... in e end. i'm the one tt is disappointed.. but he dun give a dem.

ok lp... i noe i'm mean towards him sumtimes... cos y? tt's me.. i say things... but no hard feelings... hey c'mon la... i'm jus the one laughin the loudest.. cos i'm loud??? lp.. lyk tt i get betrayed? tt's lame la.. who's the childish one here...

he says: u all stil playin the game? to sc

now i say. u think its a game? if it was a game... u'll b dead liao la...

c''mon lots of unsaid things by the guys. y? cos we cant b bothered...
oni some ppl say tt he v pitiful.

i noe sumone will tell yt dis de... thou he no internet.. but he got frens... ya rite.. frens tt he can make use of. he tok to bangla gang last few weeks... n u noe wad he told sum1....?
he says: u tink i hav a choice not to tok to em?
lol! c'mon every one tot u so gd w em! lyk tt say ur frens de ah...??? wa realli fag.

this is the 2nd time i got betrayed by a fren i trust. first one was eddie. this.. i dunno y but i trusted him... tt's y i cared. but i got bs. n i got labelled s the one who started this shit. i wanted to stop it. but sam say... hello c the things he do? n when truth revealed... i saw tt frens cannot b trusted. cos they can kill u. embrace u... empower u... den crush u like an ant! jus lyk tt... stormed their feet on u.

he... unplug the monitor com from btyz fyi... n not the 1st time. wtf ppl tot i was exaggeratin the facts! hey to whoever who said tt... u noe who u r... fuck u! cb... i'm not him. i dun go ard exaggeratin facts. n wadeva i sae abt any1 in the past is true! if u doubt me den fuk off! i dun nd ur comments abt me.

he.... bs ppl.

he.... this one... is a lil tacky. likes the sum1. hai... donald ah.... haha.... u ah... jian jie hai me act... but nvm la... not ur fault.. i suay.. cos i dumb.. but i sld thank u... cos u showed me how jian a fag can b.

to whoever who reads dis... if the sum1 tells him..... may the sum1 dies of atherosclerosis, kidney failure, brain tumor, car crash, breast cancer, asthma, insomia, fatigue n cervical cancer.




Sunday, May 07, 2006;11:34 pm **crisis core**
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cute? lol.




;10:57 pm **crisis core**
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wth... i wanna hav my own life. pls get away... jian ppl... sian.. dear.. love ya lots... marie... miss my bro.. haha..
nvm he'll b back soon... hai. life sucks sia...
went to je lib w dear! hee... den we went c cie hocky tournament. haha.. so fun.. wa. scary summore... den saw her auntie. lol.. sian diao. hah.. she scared.. dun scared dear.. hee... hugs..

den we walked ard lookin for my ah beng fone... haha.. all cheapest 518.. i saw at jurong 488... cheapest.. haha... wa.. but ex sia.. how how how...

hai.. i nd a serious food improvement.. haha... cannot go on w skinny me.. i wanna b a NUM...!!!!!!!!
haha new urban male.. wan to buy the clothes there leh.. but... v v ex!

): hai.. y am i born poor?




Friday, May 05, 2006;8:35 pm **crisis core**
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hee.. dear hugs ya... ytd was thinkin of whether i sld noe wad u told kelv.. tink i better not noe.. haha.. ignorance is a blessing! whee.. love ya! hee.. wa.. so full jus ate cai dao beng.. keke...
i nd tannin! urgh....
okok.. shall do food chem l8r.. haha.. chap 8 n 9... den food chem can say gd bye to it.. haha.. jkjk..
den i can do more stuff.. lyk... erm.. electro chem... math.. continuous variable.. den erm... nuclear phy...
gp essay... still got... erm phy paper... n revise bio from biological molecules! haha...

omg.. stil wan go tannin...
dis sun my ah gong death anniversary.. my day burned! haha..

tml election day! go go pap.. ha.

once again. i love my life. cos i've found some1 to complete my life.




Thursday, May 04, 2006;9:46 pm **crisis core**
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dear did alot for me for our 1st mth! thank you!




;1:08 am **crisis core**
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dear hope u'll b happy.. hee... did u like the video? (:




Wednesday, May 03, 2006;10:19 pm **crisis core**
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dear.. sori if i made u feel sad.. sori u broke down...
dun sad le k? i promise u i'll make u happy... i'll make u love me even more... sori.. realli sori
dun sad le.. muacks... all u did remains in my heart! all u did was enuf to take my heart away...
hope u r happy always k? hugs.. tazzie loves tweety too! huggies... dun sad dun sad.. sori..




;10:08 pm **crisis core**
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boo... wa.. shagged... tdy so tirin.. hee.. but met kelvin, zav n dear. whee.. my hp batt flat.. so sad.. was wout my hp for half a day... wa.. tired.. stil hav math n bio...




Tuesday, May 02, 2006;11:31 pm **crisis core**
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hee! dear happy monthniversary! whee.. tazzie n tweety! hee.. so sweet la.. dear gave me so many things.. i lyk taz! hee. thx dear.. realli appreciate all the things u did for me.
v borin day.. chem spa was ok la... but when i met dear.. hee.. den mood change liao.. so happy.. whee! cant wait to meet u again. mm.. 3+2... lol.. paiseh din go cb tdy.. cos chem spa til v late.. haa... mm..




Monday, May 01, 2006;11:54 pm **crisis core**
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dear i dun lyk bean curd n ryu's best fren. miss ya.




;11:42 pm **crisis core**
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sweet ma?
ugly me.




;9:06 pm **crisis core**
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i went out w my parents tdy.. saw dear for a while..haha... mm.. wakie at 9.. den i lag... went table tennis w my bro.. haha.. fun fun.. den lag again..
den i went study for a while.. realli awhile.. omg.. so shucks.. haha.. but nvm la..
mm.. den met dear cos she pass me chem spa notes.. hee thx dear! den went w family go send my bro back to tekong.. so sad.. nt week he not comin back.. cos field camp.. haha.. i'll pray for ur safety k bro.. hee... mm... save save save... i'm 13 weeks away! hha... mm i saw cheapest w800i brand new is 488.. mm.. ^_^ Y yes! cheap cheap cheap!

whee! i love this... price go down more.. cos i jus lyk the fone.. dun care if its outdated.. lol...




;12:01 am **crisis core**
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ok.. passworded my blog.. if u can read.. means u r one of my closer ones. (:








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