watch perhaps love again..
hav new inspirations! ha.. well.. i guess its life.
den i went drink beer..
lol.. w my classmates cos excursion to APB..
ok drank 4 mugs of beer.. lol.. we r crazy la.. at a godlike speed. i drank gulps down.. dunno y.. den wa..
weak bladder lol... den i went cb... puked! haha
yt send me there.. wa dem groggy...
anw.. met 3+2 gang.. hee.. tweet sho sweet. thx for bein here for me!
oei kelvin ong.. go away la!

Had dance workshop ytd.. wa.. we did hip hop, ballet, cha cha, rock'n roll and street jazz..
street jazz is dem fun la.. haha. but v tirin.. i'm lyk gg to do bio soon.. haha.. skill A nd to hand up at 12.. obviously i cant make it le. haha..
oops... hee.. stupid kelvin anyhow tag..told u not to BS me ard!
lol..
slept at 3 ytd. ha. was on d fone w a fren. well..now i'm wiser lol...somethings are jus meant to be a close door kinda ting. ha. was sho tired la! u sld be honoured s i said. hee although i was at fault initially.. lol... cos i 'pang seh' tweet la n had 3 hrs of slp! haha.. okok.. martin dun complain.
hee.. I'm happy. u guys noe y. (:

lol... okok....eunice.. haha so particular de... 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

My day was gd..keke.. hai.. lots of hiccups in btw act...
lol...i told ya to go away ytd le.. who noes i saw u today again.. tmd..
i was gg to watch movie den saw her w 2 other guys.. lolx.. ok..
how interesting...
dun care le.. eyeer.... haha..
eh... u cld sae i went out for a date i suppose.. but anw.. i saw geraldine, jeff n huilin at KFC...
lol... no comments.. y r they studyin in kfc?
lol... tt's for u to find out..

taz give u more time.. (:

okok.. 5 pm l8r.. haha.. zav will b online... lol.. i'll be home late! got phy...930 fin...
erm erm... hee...

QUOTE from shu's blog...

Love suffers long and is kind
Love does not envy
Love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;
does not behave rudely,
does not seek its own,
is not provoked, thinks no evil,
does not rejoice in iniquity,
but rejoices in the truth;
bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails.

(: ya ya... garden of eden...

hai..
u always make me sad..
dunno y.
go away!
i watchin ice age 2 tml i tink..
haha..
finally watchin a movie aft perhaps love..

oh.. sori wrong info.. its wed.. haha.. paiseh la..
mm...
alot happened today. dunno where to start.. how to start.
what's in the past remains in e past ya? (:

went out...
came back..
lag.
lol.
tml quan gang fu!

haha... i fin my sch at 830! lol...
bloggin now for fun joy n laughter..
ok.. its over le.. i dun 1 wait for u anymore...
it wont b the same lyk u said.. i jus hope u will b happy.
cos it ends here.
cos i will no longer feel the same way for u s b4.
hungry now... haha...
who wants buy me lunch!??? keke...
ytd din blog much.. went w 3+2 gang...took lots of photos...
had a quan gang fu... keke...
dem ang moh when u try to say tt.. funny... lol..
winnin eleven so nice! thx kelvin.. he'll b workin today.. haha.. sori to keep u away from ur dcj... lol..
mayb gg out l8r.. keke.. c how it goes...
home alone again... but not sad anymore...
mummy daddy dun worry k? haha.. i hav been home llte these few days.. cos i jus fin my exams la..
haha... when my results r back den i start to panic.. keke...
in the mornin went sch watch play...
abt racial harmony in spore... i tink the plot dem nice... cmon.. this is professional drama.. ok i mean at least more pro than wadeva u c in nj drama i tink... not some shakespearean stuff...
lol... css drama std back then was even better den this!! haha.. so much better...
imagine in a 300 seater theatre.. almost everyone cried la..
haha.. i was the male lead... whee! cool hor... dem pro... can do it again a few weeks back.. now oso can but nd to find the emotions again.. cos gettin numb le...
cos slowly its fadin.. slowly but surely.

omg... ok..shall blog properly.. lol.. kelvin is countin for me... day4? haha..

mm... bastard gang always disturb me de.. dun anyhow anyhow k? walls have ears...
kelvin ong n zavier ong..
Muacks! keke...

blog blog blog.. haha.. went palm playground today til 12.. lol.. w zav.. kelvin, shu n eve.keke.. zav ask eve come down de la.. lol...
zav too despo le.. well tml i got cip leh... sho sian.. today was lyk.. the mid nite part was most fun...e rest so borin..
haha.. kelvin they all dem wth...
de de de dem...
lol... 100 PVs? haha.. or dulce oso can... haha...

i feel so old.. we can lag til 12.... but at the playground... tap...
sho ironic...
day4 now... haha...
well...4 more days... zav y u lyk tt? omg...

hai.. day3. no reply. dead s salted fish.. i mean myself...
y am i thinkin so much my dear? tell me why...
we hav fallen apart. we have drifted away.. but why do i still miss u so much?
jus realised today the earphones tt u gave me spoil le..
i was lyk.. is this fate...? why? why cant i be the one always there for u?
why cant i be the man tt u love n love u always?
why cant we work out?
day3.
5 more days.
i'm scared. cos i realli tink u r tryin v hard to forget me.
n i dun 1 tt 2 happen.
l8r gg out w bastard gang den me n zav gg to drown ourselves w PV ice blended.
PV!!!! its ur fav drink. when i first went cb w my frens.. i always drank PV.. until i found dulce... cos i nd the caffeine.. but sumtimes... i will always choose PV to coffee... my last drink was PV...
hai.. n my last drink was so long ago...
miss u my dear.
miss the old days.
miss our babies? (:

zav did sumting crazy ytd... anw.. i tink love drives man crazy...
lyk zav.. me... hai.. dun sad la zav.. we go drink PV.. haha..
meetin them at 6 i tink..
tink i'm quittin PS...
for gavel... ):

today v tirin.. phy spa.. dem crap..

lol... den went out... sian... well...
went to kelvin's hse w zav.. we went gym workout.. play bb.. haha.. i can mid court chop!!! yeah!
den we jump into the pool! whee... haha... dem fun.. but abit gay.. lol... haha.. den.. went to cb.. haha thirce.. well for zav... shockin news.. hopes his G doesn't read my blog.. keke.. well neo print photos...
ytd take de...

hai.. day 2.. gg day 3.... sian.. no reply at all... tink i'll give 8 days again... lol...

eunice say no. kelvin sae yes. haha. i dunno.
oh no... heard this song u noe wad i'm thinkin le...
lalalalalalala...
ai qing yogHurt lol...
mm... but ai qing hao wei da leh.. hehe...
drink drink drink my ai qing yougurt leh....
keke... you r my ai qing yougurt.. sob sob...
lalalalalalalalala...
at minus 4 degrees celsius i still wei ni fa xiao!
lol... now i get wad it means...
cold war.. lol.. the gal lyk the luv at minus 4 oC
den the guy's love which is the yougurt still wei the gal fa xiao...
wahahhaa.... omg.. y y ? eunice... dec babies realli dun prac wad they preach...
oh no oh no...
beams! mayb gg beans l8r.. haha.. *pray* n *cross fingers* keke.. cb cb cb!!!!
zav zav can go c DHL ard.. ahha...
i can wait... lol... nvm.. yougurt....

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i oni wish for happiness.. tml got phy spa skill A... havent study.. die... but i noe.. haha...

shall mug here!!

ok.. 1stly, 5 things i nd to noe..
1) discussion of independent variables
2) hypothesis n aim
3) diagram set up n procedures
4) safety considerations
5) reliability considerations...

ok.. wad will possibly come out... rifle n object fallin in liquid...

haha... i'll do the safety n reliability 1st.. cos mrs thai sae muz complete all.. mayb no time..

kk.. so.. safety.. dem dumb de...
rifle:
1) Make sure expt done in rifle range...
2) Make sure got warnin sign outside room..
3) Make sure no one standin beside or in front of the rifle when shootin..
4) Make sure rifle is placed on the ground when going to the target board.
5) Make sure the board behind got wall so any stray pellets will be stopped..
6) General safety.. since other den the above safety precautions.. generally safe..
* lol.. wad kinda safety precaution is this!!!*

reliability considerations:
1) repeat the stupid expt la!!!! at least 5 times for each readin...keke.. w a clear purpose
2) Make sure same type of pellets used!
3) Use same rifle.. ( dun cockster anyhow cock the rifle*haha...)
4) make sure its a closed door ceremony.. haha.. closed room conditions.. hehe... y? cos no wind ma.. wheee!
5) Mark a 'hole' made by the 'pellet' usin a marker den 're-position' the cork sheets such that pellet will hit another spot... lol... * y do i always make it sound so sick?*

Discussion of variables.
dependent variable: i define depth of penetration of cork sheets s my dependent variable for my investigation. The depth of pentration can be measured by a metre rule.

Identify 1st... say how n why it affects the dependent variable...

1) Material of pellet ie.. how hard is it.. the harder the better! haha.. lol.. harder means easier to penetrate thru the target n deeper penetration.
2) Initial speed... No of aluminium sheets... larger u means deeper pentration cos takes longer time to stop the pellet..
3) shape... The more pointed it is... the greater will b the penetration. cos its pointed.. deeper into the target..
4)type of absorbent material... how hard.. softer it is.. deeper the penetration.. cos more time taken to stop the pellet completely.
5) Distance travelled by the pellet b4 hittin the target.. greater the distance travelled by pellet b4 hittin the target.. more shallow...depth of penetration... cos pellet loses more kinetic energy to work done against air resistance... thus speed of impact is lower.. less time taken to stop the pellet.. smaller depth of penetration..

choice of Independent variable...
i choose initial speed of pellets to be independent variable

Hypothesis n aim...
The kinetic energy of the pellets can be quantify as initial speed of the pellet if the mass is kept constant. Thus, the higher the initial speed of pellet, the deeper the penetration of the cork sheets.

Since I don't know how the initial speed(u) of the pellet will vary with the depth of penetration if the corksheets( d), the following relatinship is assumed.


okok.. tired ard...

phy was bad.. realli.

went to cut my hair.

i dunno if u read my blog, but if u do, n cos of wad i said u sumhow feel for me, jus wanna sae i luv u s much too. i jus dun 1 us 2 regret in the end. mayb its jus my imagination. but i jus wan u to b happy. i jus wan u to live ur life to the fullest. we may hav moved on. d luv may not b the same anymore.. not cos i dun feel for u. cos i believe tt u r happy. i'm tired of mind games ard.. if u wan me to b nice, i can b v v nice. cos i luv u. if u wan me to let go, i will. i did act.. jus tt i pray from sumwhere far from u but not outta sight.

the song my dear. how to forget? give me my whole life i oso cannot forget the days we had once. feelin down again. bao... i miss u.. will u ever come back again?

life is something so funny. u'll nv noe when u r gg to b so excited. lol. zavier, kelvin n eunice n me... we went to play arcade at west mall.. stress release.. lol.. time crisis2 !!!! wth.. eunice u realli r gd! lol. shit sho diu lian i so lousy.. but my marvel n capcom dem gd k? haha... s if.. den i lost alot of games.. hai... nvm... jo n qiuying came down today! haha... zav, kelv n me went lyk...
ai ya.. u noe us well dont u? wahhahha... anw zav was lyk sayin we go tan, gym n orchard road!! haha... kelv not invited!!! lol... keke.. too cute ard!!! haha.. nd a serious pro hair dresser. who's up to the job? hah..
i din study for phy today!!! omg shit.. i'm so screwed.. lol... anw chem was ok la.. math oso.. but bio i was lyk... wth is this.. haha... act crap thruout... i noe i din put in enuf effort so i dun doubt my capability if i dun do well.. keke.. its jus tirin n sad durin the holis. tt's y... kk... phy...
all the eqns n all tt muz rmb!!! arghhh.... haha... i was at cb at 1...
eunice ah... cannot let go still.. haha... march is an evil mth!!! cos april is comin! lol... all kelv n shu's fault! wahhaha...

saw kat.. became red indian... haha.. shi ling ok la.. not much diff.. s wad u said.. wahhaha... every1 change so much.. mentally... life's sho cool... cos it keeps changin... u dun even noe wad to do next... lol... * if u dun catch the sacarsm*

d reason i put this song is cos i tink its lyk so my situation. lol.. haha.. was lyk listenin to it in the mornin on the bus.. den cry... lol... cnd was on da bus too.. but din c la.. den i was lyk... chem confirm screwed! lol.. heng i not s bad s shu.. lol.. go c her blogr! i tink she'll update soon! haha.. sho sho screwed.. den jeff n gerd n new gal*hui ling* came over... lol... eve u sld noe.. all ex classmates.. lol...

den i looked over.. zav went" i noe wad u r thinkin!" lol... wth.. hehe... he was lyk lookin at hl la.. lol HL milk... keke... den kelv oso! wa sin ful... in front of shu! @#%^&
haha... den we told shu... den shu this super big blur queen! told jeff... in front of gerd n HL... wth...
shu nt time we dun tell u stuff ard...
den zav n kelv n eunice was lyk teasin me... sae i despo... anw this is another situation ard... cos QY was cryin at cb.. awww.. den i was lyk... ^_^ * horny horny* lol... no la.. we were lyk guys crap talk... den aft tt they keep sayin i look at QY n lyk her la! lol... no ok... thou she's quite an eye candy*wahhahah* but no la.. the love btw JC n her is strong.... keke... no la.. i dun lyk any1 now...
cos i noe no pt... lol... get hurt again n again... n hurt other ppl... wad for? * being dec babies... u dun prac wad u preach* lol....
grinns.... eunice tot i lyk jo la! wth... sho complicated! c'mon.. i'm faithful ok.. haha.... oh no... nt time i sldn't go food junction anymore...
at least w guys....
cos today zav held my hand!!! ewww so gay! the last time was kelvin.. he groped my balls... den now... wtf!!!

crazy.. i shall play arcade again tml... haha.. c how la.. la say go watch V for vendetta.. the last time i watch a movie was perhaps love...
lol.. stil stuck in tt era.... hha...
gg to cut my hair...
my blog sho long.. gettin bored rite..? haha...
kk gg to study for my phy liao... pls pray for me... ok? i hope all gods bless me.. cos i realli nd luck now!!! haha...
got free PV ice blended from kelvin... gave him a hug!! haha.. ok.. gayed.... lol... oh.. joanna got a new fone.... i mean my class jo.. haha... so confused ppl!!! names lyk joanna is so common... lol.. somemore joanna chan... lol JC... keke... no!! JC is Jian Chuan.. QY ( qiuying's bf...)
wahahha... omg,... sho funny...

wa.. gee gee... i'm lyk so tired now. how to mug.. nd coffeee!!!! i havent had caffeine today.. haha.. eunice sho nice la.. gave me mac coupon.. haha.. ate funtastic burger.. lol.. k lor.. v diff.. oops.. my 1st time eatin tt.. cos ppl sae not nice!!! haha...

eunice.. embarce urself.. wad u said to me i'm gg to say it to u.. ben ben mayb sum1 u luv sho much once... u cared n felt sho much for him.. u can feel luv when u kiss him or hug him...
but when luv fades, all these fades s well... its painful cos u luv him.
its painful for me to get hurt. but for my ex to do this to me, she muz hav felt twice s much the hurt before sayin it to me.
tt's y i let her go. when luv fades n pain n fatigue, n when there r other ppl ard, she moves on. sho sld i...
since he cant go all out for u... he doesn't luv u tt much. he's jus not the rite one den.
luv is not a one way street. cos if tt happens, u'll end up gettin hurt. u'll end up givin up hope on love... haha.. jus lyk me.. keke...

no love... jus frens. no pain. jus nthness. no sadness. no happiness.
sho many times i tried... sho many time she has tried. it jus din work out. it jus failed miserably every time.
i still love her. but i noe i hav to move on. I still miss her but it aint obsession... i still dreamt of her in a wedding gown, but when i wake up to reality, i noe tt its all the past. its not the same anymore.

i screamed for help. but i hav no choice. i still hav an ungiven letter.. wanted to give her. but shu said no pt.. cos it mayb jus another letter to her. but to me, its an end. along w the cd w the song our story by tension.

now... its this song. cos i noe even thou i luv her, she dun luv me tt much to give it all out. she wld in the past, but she din feel any reassurance.... n thus.... fatigue sets in.. n she gave up.

still cant post photo!!! y?

kee came over today!!! cant seem to upload my photos... wa... nv mug since jus now.. wahahah... die!!!! tml bio n math!!! nd to mug lots.. kee muz tag l8r k? hahah.. display pic!!! best cuzzies foreva!! wahaha.... thx for comin.. n dun worry.. keke.. sh is sho cute!!! omg... i tink u sld hav chose her... XD u dun 1 intro to me! wahahah.... keke... shit will mp read my blog!?????? arghhh! keke.. tell me if she does. ****shit shit***
omg.. eve ah.. y nv c u at lot 1.. keke... dun worry.. pray tt headache go away!!! ~bleagh~ if not.. got stress aid!!! keke.. ur wall! bang bang*** lol...

wa.... had so much fun muggin.. lol.. woke up at 10.. wahahaha... den now 2.. i mug bio... wahhaha.... siao ard... stil got alot!!! i oni bei the pts la... maths... omg vectors!!! i die.. havent study... was doin nj last year paper tt day at je lib w eve den died noe.. hah.. stil tell her i go home den check.. but in the end.. tml is the paper le!! havent touch since!
chem... i nd to bei the mech.. n my phy chem v jia lat... wth... i nd more free sms!!! arghh bao bao bao awaY!!!! my sms lyk hit sky limits le.. shit* mum i'm sori!* hehe... eh.. ppl... thx for the encouragement u all gave me durin the holis... now holi fin le.. we muz all mug hard k? haha... act holi is supposed to mug de la but too many thing happen liao.. lol.. cnd say my holi v happenin... wth.. i dun 1 de la! ppl msg junyang k? haha.... i'm junyang!! not kelvin!!! rmb hor.. keke.. nd words of encouragement.. can b typical la... lyk : get well soon!
lol.... hehe... wa crap crap.. jus tag can le.. ahha.. msg me la.. i tot my hp died few mths back... i was abt to complain to singtel!!!! wakaka.. *yuan lai shi zi ji not popular enuf*
basket.. keke... wa.. tml ct liao.. stil laggin here.. kaka... so sian.. i'm lyk thinkin of alot of things again.. haha.. stressed... not sad.. but stressed!!!
eating my dust! bleagh... desserts spelt backwards..
lol... ytd wei xuan came cb.. was lyk dem funny.... hehe.. shall do it on gals nt time!!! wa lao... dem jian! keke.... ACSI rox la.. come up w this kinda basket idea.. keke...

hoho kelvin... peace foreva.. whee... eunice is so gg to screw u when she reads ur blog! haha.. *sidin her liao* whee l8r her ben ben come n "grab" u!
shit la... ytd the fake jy touch my balls la!! basket... so brokeback mountain....

shu teach ur bf la!!! den eunice went: omg kelvin pls restrain urself... its lyk u dun go around grabbin shu's B***** in public rite?
lolz!!! thx eunice dear! wahhaha... whee.. dec babies rocks!!!
wakkaka.... laugh till peng...

shu's rite... dunno if i got blogged it ytd... anw its lyk i was tellin her how i feel how she felt last time... gai care de bu care... ppl u dun expect to care ji ran care so so much!!!
haha... i sld take photo of the choc shu n kelvin gave me!! keke.. be happy...

ok i can blog safely abt how i threaten kelvin... put at the last para.. haha... was lyk cos he lend me his hp ma... keke... den i basket basket go c.. lol! chan mali chan... shu dun jealous la... wad's past is the past...
paiseh la fake JY... i'll b nicer to u nt time... wa i havent scold u lor... nt time i tell u wad happen.. lol u nv considered a factor!!! lol...

wth!!!! the fake JY is takin over the real JY!!! wad is the world becomin of????
everyone sae's he's cute... dr tron... arghhHH!!!!!!
keke.... this is crazy.. i go tell shu den u noe!

haha!!1 today dem fun... in da mornin i went hav brunch w my brudder!! haha. so long nv go liao.. tok alot.. keke... love him... haha..

aft tt met shu den go chem... well we were late act. cos of me! haha sorwie... den aft tt.. me shu n liy n kelv went united square to meet eunice! haha... cool k? we had a gr8 lunch... notice dec babies eat alot!!! haha... high 5 eunice! keke... anw we eat western food... mm eunice's recommendation! haha 5.60 value meal.. lol... sho totful.. cos i lyk pok ard... den aft tt me n nice went to draw money.. lol 20 bucks.. i oni hav 35 bucks in my acc la! lol... from 1.2k... wth.... sian...
i got alot of photos!! keke.. l8r post up.. anw shi n kat n fy comin back soon le.. haha
so many things happened... i jus grew stronger...
den we went to c pets aft tt.. haha.. so fun! all the rabbits n fightin fishes! nice sae i look lyk fightin fish!.. lyk.. my fren.. lol.. keke.. den aft tt went cb... kelv workin... den we mug abit.. den tok lor... i love my life.. i love my frens now.. n my family... jus wanna be v v gd to em... haha... they r so impt to my life...

was tellin shu how i noe how she felt tt the frens tt care most r those we jus met... lyk so ironic.. but nvm la... ppl lyk nice, kelv, shu... haha... n many more la of cos!!!! haha...
den was lyk sharin abt whether i sld... okok.. quite personal.. change topic..oh ya!
was tellin shu act i wan make necklace full of seashells for my ex.. but haha.. nvm.. when shi n kat comes back.. i'll try to make for shu nice n kelv... haha... *if i lazy den jus give em!* keke... well all the way from maldives ok... muz appreciate it... haha... realli hope i can get.. den i'll b foreva grateful to shi n kat.

well... eve.. cheer up thou... haha... life goes on. realli. love isn't everything la. the worst has happened so to me its lyk.... i noe how my ex felt le... n jus let her go n wish her happiness lor.

well... din mug much today... but i've be tryin my best le!! wahhaaha.... really.. keke... i'm a gd singer! liy say de! wahahha thx...
n shu oso... hah kelv cant sing! lol... keke... whee so happy!
cnd i'm not pirated JY lor.. I'm realli JY! :)

n kelv... chan mali chan! lol... *oh shit* i'm gg to get it from him!

today went je lib mug wif eve...
lol kaiwen n shu ah.... dun tease me anymore!!!!!!!!!!
u couple... cant stand it.. adam here adam there...
i guess lettin go is realli gracious. once the love fades. lyk wad she saes. it wun b the same le.
miss the days. but so wad? keke. no more care n concern le.
crothers is rite. i'm bad. but she has moved on. so dun cling on lyk a housefly anymore.
unless she's jus to spite me. but y wld she do tt?
communication is v impt in a rlnship.
eve say she tot i lyk shari. lol. no!??!!! haha.. but too bad for me la..
was bloggin den my msn window all turn orange!!! lol... oops* too popular liao.. keke.. jk... well...
i'm the real jun yang! haha... tension rocks!

true love is abt givin n respectin. :)
snap out of it. let it be the memories. if fate comes.. yes.. if it doesn't. den its jus too bad for us.. :)

our story has a beatiful beginning. n its gg to end gracefully too. (:
i'm sorry for hurtin u again n again. n will pray for u from a distance. :)

there lived a man who love a gal... but he din noe how to show his concern for her... when she fell... he din pick her up. she grew to be stronger. scars left behind were a sign of me hurtin her. when i finally look back n pick her up.. she's ard standin and walkin on her own feet again.. she no longer nd some1 to guide her.. she no longer trust some1 who wasn't here for her when she fell n cried. the man stopped... and cried. he regretted.. but she was devoid of emotions. cos she no longer sees the hero in the man. she found a new purpose in her life.. she did wad the man did to her. move on but she nv looked back. the man.. forced himself to stand up. cos he know tt the gal he loves have died. when she had the hardest fell... the man ran away. now they reached croos roads. tt's life. tt's me. tt's us.

i'm grievin cos i lost sum1 tt i luv n care most abt. she has died. officially ytd. i knew abt it but i jus wanna c it myself. i luv her. but she's dead.

shall blog wadeva i feel ard.. if u r senstitive... go away. this is my blog. i'm jus bloggin my life.. wad i feel..

ok.. teddy finally got together w shu.. hahah... congrats for new lovers.. on the day of my seperation.. ironic.. lol... but nvm la.. anw i was talkin to eunice ytd.. intellectual talk... we went up n down west mall for dunno how many times... haha.. tok abt stuff la..cool.. eunice.. dec babies rock big time!!!! wahahha... we clique dem well gal...

thx peeps... for bein there for me when i'm so down..
shu.. for listenin to my sorrows n all the serviettes..hahah.. dun post the photos on ur blog.. so pai seh...

kelv... thx for the dulce latte... ytd.. free drink noe.. haha...

eunice.. "dec babies r fighters!" yes we r...

zavie... thx for bein here even thou i din catch up w u so long..

gun.... omg... all the way from US.. u still care so much for me s a gd gd fren.. thx k? thx for wakin me up from my obsession.haha...

constance.. thx oso.. haha... for bein my big sis... da jie da..

yu tian.. thx for carin k? my big guy...

rach!!! thx for knockin my head... well f*** off i'll rmb always k?


omg.. gun!!???? hahah
"plus the pain.. and the brain cells killed.. and the amt the water content in ur body lowers due to all the crying.. not to mention the NaCl content as well.

den u need to drink more water..


it's too much


she's no longer the one tt i love.mahteen.blogspot.com says:
lol
she's no longer the one tt i love.mahteen.blogspot.com says:
so bio
Gunjan says:
hahah well i'm going to study bioengineering in college ..

lol!!!! no wonder.. haha....


was talkin to rach jus now... cool... hey.. thx k?

i feel so blessed.. when i'm down.. so many frens came to help...
thx k? when i tot my life was over... it was jus the beginnin of my new life....
i hav to move on.. cos i noe i'll keep all the gd memories in my heart. n move on w my life. mayb i'll find some1 jus lyk who she was. n luv her even more.. at least i knew i was bad to her.. it was jus sad tt we cannot b together again. i wish her happiness in her new life. i wish myself happiness too. life is too short to dwell on the past...
unless she luves me for who i am.. n i can accept who she is.. mayb this is wad she realli is... n she's happy. i must b happy too.. cos i care for her s a sis... s a fren.
true frens n rlnship doesn't require shower luv n concern. it comes from within.. she may not noe.. but s long s u noe u care.. its enuf.
i know y she felt tt way too... now i noe wad she meant when she said.. " where were u when i was sad?" my frens cared.. but not u...

i tink i've grown. n i hav to thank her. for givin me wad i gave her.. to make me a stronger a better person. i dun blame her cos for her to do tt to me.. she hav to b hurt one, two or even thousand time more den wad i feel. she's gracious to let me go. to let me learn. n b myself again.

i wun ask to b her hero again. cos hero ends up bein so alone. if she cares in time... mayb. if she doesn't, den its jus too bad.


the lived a man who love a gal... but he din noe how to show his concern for her... when she fell... he din pick her up. she grew to be stronger. scars left behind were a sign of me hurtin her. when i finally look back n pick her up.. she's ard standin and walkin on her own feet again.. she no longer nd some1 to guide her.. she no longer trust some1 who wasn't here for her when she fell n cried. the man stopped... and cried. he regretted.. but she was devoid of emotions. cos she no longer sees the hero in the man. she found a new purpose in her life.. she did wad the man did to her. move on but she nv looked back. the man.. forced himself to stand up. cos he know tt the gal he loves have died. when she had the hardest fell... the man ran away. now they reached croos roads. tt's life. tt's me. tt's us.

Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back
Would you cry if you saw me crying
Would you save my soul tonight?
Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh
oh please tell me these
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight?
(Chorus)
I can be you hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away
Would you swear that you'll always be mine?
Would you lie would you run away
Am I in to deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care you're here tonight
Chorus I just want to hold you (2x)
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well I don't care you're here tonight
Chorus (2x)
You can take my breath my breath away
I can be your hero

ha... yt realli rox.. tok to him on the fone for 4 hrs.. til 3 am in the mornin. n i hav spa aft tt noe.. whee.. tt's cool.

well. bio spa.. ok la. averagely done. anw i'm so tired... bloggin in the afternoon.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O92fwTJ9Row&search=ai%20chuo

I sent her dis to her mail. hope she reads it. :} dunno wad to say le.


signin off,
~Mar Mar

war ended.. lose.. losing... lost... GP gone... every other thing oso.. hai.. so sad.. dunno wad's wrong.. jus feel abit weird today... dun feel lyk bloggin liao.. boo.. sucks la.. today nv mug much.. s usual.. expected.. nvm la.. where's my zav? hai.. sian.. nd to mug sweriously but i jus cant focus.. today i c chem the qns lyk.. c stars... dunno wad was happenin today act. too sick. no hope for me liao... oni YT noes abt it. ha. ironic.

mentally weak. phyically broken. i'm nth la... today was lyk.. sad.. had pe.. free games! hah. we ran warm up two rounds den the guys ran w a bb.. i was runnin ahead.. den i threw the ball behind to e class.. was supposed to reach a guy's hand... in the end.. i missed.. lol! hit novi.. oops.. sori leh! haha. la.. u muz be grateful k.. oni i contributed to ur bdae.. thou u may not view my blog but tt's not the pt.. haha.. ai ya.. pri sch fren til classmates now.. nvm la... i dun bear grudges.. thou i noe the gals dun realli lyk me.. lol... anw... dun tink u all will celebrate when it comes to my bdae lor.. mayb joanna u all will stil v on.. den dec 18... oops... whose bdae is tt ah? :( sad case.. we'll c abt it.. anw today v sad.. tml gp exam.. now ard 7pm.. haven't started.. nvm la.. i'll finish the gp package l8r.. do the topic on wad i feel i hav the most confidence in.. :)

i feel so empty inside... was talkin to karla on the bus.. den we were lyk discussin abt the chem make up jus now.. alot of ppl din noe how to do the stuff.. den i was lyk askin realli? haha... bein an asshole* beams* den she was lyk.. eyes open v v big noe... haha. lol.. but it was ok la.. den i got labelled s a mugger again.. duh.. everyone mugs.. i haven't touch bio... gg to do it in the holis.. if not will forget wad i mugged..

din go for pre u sem meetin.. so tired.. shu ask me go cb tml.. v tirin... sniffs.. cant really mug there.. she ask me go cos she dun1 2 b alone la! hmph! cos jess gg ap tml.. w geraldine.. den zav at wake... o.. zav's grandad passed away.. my gd fren.. my condolences to u..

today kat fy n shiling left le... gg to.. midnite flight.. whee... to maldives.. i would hav been there.... wanted to sign up de.. hai.. lyk so fun.. take my time off studies n realli soak myself in mother nature.. achieve the state of clear mind.. the world is so confusin now... at least for my world... haha.. i ask kat n shi get seashells for me! maldives seashells... whee! so cool... hope i can make myself a necklace outta it.. ahha...

Yt... don.. michelle and peeps who r gg for SSEF tml... all the best k?! muz win distinction award... if not dun come back! haha.. jk la.. do wadeva u all can.. i hav faith on yt... he has improve on his speeches le... which is a gd thing..

boo.. life... up... down... down dominates...
bleagh.... studies... love... family... gavel... myself.... flop.

i see a real world inside myself.
but its an ugly world..

din blog ytd... too tired..went to cb... met shu, eunice, cinst aaron n joanna.. well two new ppl.. eunice asked me to go zouk on 16th march.. well.. no id check entry 18 bucks.. sounds fun.. if i go drink there s well.. *hope i can noe*.. haha.. been slpin at 2 these few days.. online.. tired.. havin phy l8r.. alone... sian.. mrs lim la..hai... dunno wad's wrong.. if lyk tt muz well i jus conc on A phy.. so shagged ard.. its oni 310.. gg home.. bath.. eat n off i go. tt's my life..cant mug today.. no time for it.. then fri is my gp exam.. shit.. gettin the chills now.. :(

ah.. oh tap.. forgot to add.. 2 hammies of mine officially died! i'm so sad ok... hai... jus hopin tt things will jus become better n better... instead of things gg downhill...

i blew up my hp bill!!!!!!!!!!!! for once!!!!! oh no... its lyk exceeded the msg limits lyk 129... wa tap.. sian la.. all those gavel stuff n consolin ppl.. n ppl consolin me.. wa... died... my mum was lyk naggin! sobs... y? dun get it noe... i nv msg alot wad.. hai.. k shall stop msgin ppl.. think this mth i bao again... confirm... boo.. i'm v sad now liao.. my mum lyk v v bu shuang... :( bah.. the fotos was taken b4 the bill came... X(

oh no.. tink wad ppl sae abt sumtings abt me is v true... well bloggin in sch now.. i'm gg to b v v guai.. not gg to go online at home.. i'm tryin... X( sian.. life is so tirin.. i got whacked in utopia again!! got whacked by a suicider! argh.. nvm.. went cb ytd.. saw sc.. haha... n his dad.. ok.. he drank dulce n couldn't went to slp til 1.30 pm! lol.. hah. i drank tt n fell aslp on the table on mon! lol.. wont b gg to cb til aft term test.. say bye bye to zav, jeff, const n shu.. haha.. everyone is so busy.. well... apparently i'm supposed to type out gp stuff.. ok.. did ard la.. sian.. today nth much happen.. jus feel tt time flies... so fast.. 3 mths gone.. 2006... i was still in the 2000 era not long ago.. wadeva happen to timestoppers? ha.. tt was random.. anw the shoot me guide i found it randomly in google image.. quite cool.. n the heart... well.. gross rite? bleagh.

my heart is bleeding.
dun rub salt to it.
my wings r broken.
dun remind me of them.

chocs r anti depressants. but oni for an hr.. tears nv stop fallin.. life nv stops going...
i feel lyk ppl r jus tools... we r constantly manipulated.. imagine wad if there's sumting else or someone else or greater power in the universe that lives etrenally.. n we jus live lyk.. 70odd years.. to him we r jus lyk nth.. jus machines who keep the universe movin.. r we?
I feel tt i'm at cross roads.. i dunno wad exactly do i wan in my life.. doc? psychologist? policeman? why am i workin so hard?
talk to yt ytd.. talked abt alot of things.. i feel lyk a childish brat.. all the things i did in sch.. i noe i'm jus super immature... n tt i'm super idealistic.. i wan things to happen in a certain way.. i suck in givin ppl freedom of speech... i'm a dictator.. the arty farty temper in me flars up once in a while.. n mayb tt's y i'm havin so many probs. tt's y i lost her. cos i'm jus too idealistic.. imagine if she gets oppressed by me till eternity.. wun i b so unfair to her.. she once wanted to shine for me.. but now.. she shines for a diff reason.. for herself. sldn't i b happy she's less dependent on a spoilt brat n an insensitive guy lyk me? at least she found herself out from her 3 rlnships.
why can i jus be a lil more gracious? the pain of letting go.

wad do i exactly wan in my life? who am i? r humans jus a race amongst the many other raes in the universe? why are we self indulging then? why do we dwell so much in our 70 years of life rather than working for our future gen?
why do i feel so alone? n left out? my life moves on purely on this basis of belief. all humans are animals too.. many a times we based our judgement on gut feeling. rather than logic. u cant deny the fact that u feel more for a certain interviewee cos they give u a better impression. same applies to studies, work, play, leisure.

today is a v borin day.. v fan la... so much things happened.. but i'm jus too tired of everything...
Went for pre u sem.. interview workshop, chem, cb n home.. mugged w shu.. lol i saw cheng wei n shu ying on bus 67! haha... scandal scandal... haha.. ai ya din ask how was the presentation by ying... haha.... cos we hav to leave for interview workshop we left her alone to present...
tired.. chem took foreva to end.. den when i go cb.. was lyk.. ok i read thru phy.. tt was my target.. but too tired to do anything else.. shu was sad.. dun wanna tok abt it.. anw i had nasi lemak for dinner! its v nice.. v famous de.. haha... sho full now.. drank coke when i reach home cos i drank Pure vanilla ice blend.. caffeine free.. c i stil rmb u... the special person who introduced me to PV.. we always get tt when we past a cb outlet.. except once when i din ask for a PV but a V ice blend instead.. i noe u dun drink coffee... headache rite? :) dun wanna give her xtra stress... but i'm so tired... drank 2 n a half cups of coke jus now.. i nd tt caffeine.. haha..

whee... i shall change my bg song.. bloggin while i'm havin pre u sem meetin online.. we r jus crazy.. meet almost everyday!!!!! arghh deprivin me of my life... went cb aft tt.. w const n shu.. tired.. shu dragged me to cb.. din wan to go de.. but she was sweet la.. gave me a chunky.. lol! i'm easily to bribe de.. haha.. if u r realised.. haha... Saw kelv... ok la.. quite cute.. hahah.. one of shu's 4 desirables.. will not dwell on it... so tired... whee... sad.. happy.. tired.. cryin.. life sucks...

supposed to hav halfday today but i hav pre u sem n left sch at 530... sian.. life is a mess.. no mood. nt fri gp. i'm dead. almost. even if i hav more time i still cannot finish de.. cos my heart is not there.. i got elbowed on my head durin pe.. sad.. v pain.. my hw r pilin.. not doin.. hav to revise liao.. hai.. sometimes i dun even noe wad i want in life. not wallowin in self pity.. jus tt i do hav alot of probs tt are unsolvable.. if there's such a word.. Was doin gp.. i'm so scared.. imagine if u fail gp.. where can u go? fail miserably tt kind.. n even if u get 4 As its oso useless. everyone is innate with certain capabilities. n this is my max.. i noe it.. i'm stretchin myself to the fullest.. any further strain n i'll snap.

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