Saturday, January 07, 2006;8:36 pm **crisis core**
lol
Life is never the perfect picture in your mind. However hard I try to change myself for my special one, it would fail to become something normal. I realised what is important to a relationship. Trust. But I failed. Sorry that I cannot take you to be my lawful wedded wife Will not be able to love, respect and honour you throughout my years together.
listened to this song was v sad.
自我催眠
人群里面那个我把幸福遗落
那曾经走过的路口我停了你却走
我想捂住我的耳朵听不见你说
爱就在此刻松手分手放手
我猜不透不猜透
和你背对背的走
原来怪我没有
没有爱情的天分你才要走 Woo
我想要学会自我催眠
痛觉会少一些
潜意识作祟想着想到失眠
我躺在没有你的房间
寂寞更加明显
我渐渐的自我催眠
却回不到从前
等着红灯那个我还会向前走
也许那幸福的执着在下一个路口
专属铃声我还留着却静静沉默
在我们之间爱了放了散了
我会不说不想说
怕说了也没有用
现在我的幽默
只是掩饰着心痛我的难过 Oh
我想要学会自我催眠
痛觉会少一些
潜意识作祟想着想到失眠
我躺在没有你的房间
寂寞更加明显
我渐渐的自我催眠
却回不到从前
我想要学会自我催眠
聪明再多一些
潜意识作祟想着想到失眠
聪明再多一些
我走在没有你的世界
却走不到永远
我渐渐的自我催眠
慢慢闭上双眼
kept thinking about the happy times when we got together.
The first time when i saw you. When your dad came to school and the rest of the drama people keep calling him my dad-in-law. The very first time i held your hand walking up the slope. The very first time we watch our first movie: Freaky Friday and I had popcorn all over my shirt. The first time we took neoprints together. All is gone just like before we started.
I hope life gets better for you and for me. But I'll remember all the ice-skating sessions, all the movies(we didn't watch 100), all the the bus rides and the drama sessions. You chose what you wanted. I hope you didn't regret it. I hope I was nicer two years ago. Maybe that will turn the tables around to the extent that things could be solve in a better way.
At 1.43pm, my heart stop beating. I was dead. How I wished I could turn back the time. But it was all too late. You didn't have the confidence to say no to me. I could feel it. To think that I kept saying about breaking up for the past few years, in the end, I was the biggest loser. I end up being the one that was the one without any goals. Because i was a part of you. I felt like a part of you. When you stopped visiting me, I wondered why. I didn't understand why you gave me a cold shoulder, until today. I'm glad I plucked up the courage to let you go. I'm happy I think you made the right choice. Because I'm not worthy. Know you'll find better ones. We did change in the end, if you didn't realise. I became too sensitive in your opinion. And you, too insensitive. You didn't even bother to sms or call me after school term starts. Thanks. I was made a fool believing that you are busy. Busy to the extent that you couldn't even spend one minute of your time to message me?
To be happy. Or to be sad?