Sunday, May 21, 2006;9:16 am **crisis core**
lol
Dear, why r u unhappy? tot things were great... tot life has changed. i dunno...
problem is not i want to cancel internet de... jus tt i go home go online. go online cannot study. cant multi task.
den my parents will say say say..
den A's come out they'll blame me for tt.
do u understand?
i'm realli happy w u. cos i realli c a future in us.
keep tellin u this dunno u'll sian or not. n i realli can feel tt u r not happy.
but i dunno how to comfort u.
if u r unhappy abt smtg... speak up to me k?
cos i wan our rlnship to b truthful. to be happy.
i wan it to last.
i wan to hav a beautiful story w u.
yes i'm crazy abt num.
but i'm crazy cos mayb i'm feelin empty inside...
sometimes ppl do somethings cos they r feelin deprived of it.. n shoppin for smtg tt i lyk can make me happy in the sense tt i'm deprive of it...
my mum always disapproves me of buyin such stuff... even thou it looks nice on me.
n i jus wan to destress... feel happy w doin things tt i can. while i can.
yes i mayb rash. v rash.. always cant wait for things... save up lyk hell...
but if i dun do tt... i wont get tt.... cos i noe if i save up slowly...
chances are i may end up gettin nth. cos i wont save de...
i will still blog in sch.. i dunno... but net is realli tyin me down.. look at me bloggin at such crazy time. 9 am in the mornin.. gg to tan w zav later... who the hell on earth wld do tt...
even w a gf.. even w lots of hw to do...
who? but me.
com addiction is all i can sae.
i realli hope u do understand.
if u r realli unhappy muz tell me...
i dun 1 u 2 feel tired to the pt of givin me up den u tell me... when everything is irreparable.
cos i care.
cos i realli do wish " til death do we part"
cos life is too short to be sad over it.
n cos i love u.